Posted at 7:24 PM 0 comments (+) Just found out that i actually didn't post anything since the begining of the month. So sorry, i was so busy with everything.

So, january wasn't really a good month for me. Was really busy with everything, school, cca and many more :( Can't even really find some time to like...go shopping for daily needs :( How should i say? I'm still getting used to secondary 4 life. Totally no longer the same as last year anymore.
Teachers change. Method of learning and teaching changes. Everything changes. I drift away from many people and become like strangers now. Hate the feeling but haizzz nothing can change also.
Fall sick two times this month too. Bad running nose and slight fever that really made me moodless and tired. Attended school even when i'm sick and i could not concentrate due to the medicine that really make me dizzy and sleepy. So, people actually thought that i was moody instead of sick. Anyway, thanks to pigu chew for the herbal tea that she brought for me. :)

Be it happy, sad, angry or what. Life stills goes on. I learn alot even though its only january. I learn and told myself that i don't have to know everything that happen around me. I don't have to ask. People will say if they want you to know. What is the point of asking when they are not going to tell you? That's what i learn. I told myself not to find out things that people hide from me. Well, if they hide from you, it is obviously clear that they don't want you to know right? Then what for ask? Knowing too much wouldn't do me any good also.
But i found out that i actually hated it when people whisper INFRONT OF ME. God damn it. I really hate it. I find it okay in the past but now... Lol i must be crazy though. Told myself not to care in the past but i still hate it when people whisper infront of me. It make me feel really left out and feel like they don't trust me. Mentally crazy-Me

Okay lah. end of what is written on top. Chinese new year is coming. Its the first year where i feel like spending the money recieved to grab some books and tys from popular. Its the first time in my life. I must be crazy but i feel like really bucking up in my studies and practice alot. My goal of getting 13 and below is still so far. Really far...when i realised i forgot alot of things learnt in secondary 3. Wanted to really study and revise everyday but homework is always that many that sometimes took me more than an hour to finish an assignment and spent the time till 11 plus plus before i could sleep. By the time i woke up, i will be so damn tired that i wouldn't have the mood to actually study in school or even pay attention. Not only is homework increasing...the amount of time i spent on cca is actually abit too much. Everytime after cca by the time i reached home is like 7 plus normally? Cca actually took me quite lot of time...and that kiang wants us to perform at the don't know what the place call but it is to perform to public i think? OKay lah, to be honest, i hate it. I'm not going to perform. I have spent too much time on cca already...i am not going to spent anymore time on it preparing for the performance. I have decided to play only till syf and after that step down and really concentrate on my studies. Hope teahcer spprove of not letting me perform for the public thingy.

End of post for today... its abit like ranting hoh? Hahahah! Bring in some pictures maybe after i come back from oversea. Meanwhile, take care poeple, drink more water. :)